My Sinister World

"The is reality, this is life, this is - the caos factor." -Sinister85

04 February, 2006

This is street singer Posted by Picasa
And this is farewell hummel! And there's me, as the jesse bunny! (LOL!!!)

03 February, 2006

Move to Chicago? Me? Why?

Heya!

Its been awhile since I had a blog, lol. I doubt anyone even will read this. geeze, my day... Nothing really exciting happened today. I was just relapsed upon the past. I was talking to someone today, that I used to have fun with. We used to talk all the time, we never really got to see eachother though. anyway he asked me if I was ever going to move to Chicago. So I was thinking about it. What does Chicago have to offer me? Him? He told me everything at my finger tips, and a chance at a good job making good money. Is that true? Chicago used to be so magnetic, and intriguing. Now it just seems empty, but why is that? is it because i dont feel the same, about the same people. possibly. is it because i have someone in mind, or because i cant make up my mind as to what the hell my life is supposed to be about. or what i'm supposed to do with it. Am i here for a reason and if so what is that reason? Chicago holds a past of mine, which i'm not happy with. i was hurt, and i was lost. Do i want to go back to that? do i want to be hurt again? of course not, but is he worth a chance, who knows. who knows how he feels, does he even know?
On a lighter note, i looked up my hummels today. the ones my grandmother gave me. I also looked up my moms. They were worth like 379.00 and 259.00 so i was pleased. If you are familiar with hummels, i have Farewell, and Street singer. I will try and include pictures. anyway i thought it was cool. i saw so many hummels, there were quite a few i thought were really adorable, that i kinda wanted. eh, i'll never get em. so anyway i need to get to writing my letter to Don, whom is due back from iraq march 14th. YAY! haha until tomorrow's post i guess..
Peace,
Jess