My Sinister World

"The is reality, this is life, this is - the caos factor." -Sinister85

27 May, 2006

Whom Is Dani California?

If you read my other blog on myspace, you'll already know some of what im going to say. The new track released by the red hot chili peppers is called "Dani California" i recently realized that i knew that name from somewhere, but where? I realized i'd heard it before in some chili peppers songs. I know its on californication but have yet to remember which song. But i did check out their recent (before this album) album by the way, has the name Dani spelled the same way, so it must be in refference to Dani California. In case you dont know, Dani california is a girl. But the point of my invesigation was to determain who is dani california, how did she die? and what relationship with the red hot chili peppers did she have?

Track one side one - "Dani the girl is singing songs to me" Album: By The Way Song: "By the Way" - RHCP

in the song "Dosed" he talks about a women dieing, could that be dani california? and if so why did he not come out with "Dani california" closer to her death?

In the music video to "Dani California" they pay homage to rock over the years, changing clothes with every verse. Beatles, twisted sister, ect. ending with themselves... So is this who dani california is? All the rockers from cali? some people reffer to places or cars as women..

Dani Cali could that be a refference to drugs? the craving for herion is finally gone from my system? Does it have something to do with Hillel slovak (sorry for the miss-spelling the other day!)? If i may quote "The day my best friend died, i could not get my copper clean" as to what his "Copper" is, i dont know. A lot of the chili's songs have to do with their bandmate, friend, family memeber's death. Really if i was to explain everything about this section in their life, it would take forever so instead i found an awesome link that explains it very well.
http://www.slovakopedia.com/h/hillel-slovak.htm Dont worry its not a page just on Hillel despite what the addy is, its on the founding fathers of the band, and how they accidently became rock legends... How is it everyone becomes rock legends and never means to? But people with real talent and a sore spot for music, cant get anywhere? i've heard some awesome local bands, chicago's got to have some of the best, springfields are okay though.. Point being, music is music, whether everyone knows about it, or its your secret!

So at the end of the day, tired of searching, we still have no idea, who dani california really is. A love interest of anthony's? Someone the band Jamed with? A producer that worked with them? A family friend, or something to that effect. All we know is its something or someone whom really effected the chili pepppers, so at the end of the day, that's the only answer we've got. -Jessica

26 May, 2006

Myspace

I was browsing myspace today, listening to dani california... I decided to see who was added to my school.. who was there but cory.. you may remember him from a few posts ago, the one i went to school with that recently fixed the buicks tire... well i expected him to be there, and he is still just as full of himself.. heh im so glad im so over him.. but then something unexpected happened.. Matt ... whew matt.. who has forgotten about him? seems like its been a million years right? yeah he is really thin now and balding.. has two kids with whom i can only assume was stephany... they were the two that went on springer and she took a milk bath and poured chac. on her... and he was all "why didnt you tell me, we're having a kid, we're supposed to get married, and you wanna be a stripper and blah blah" only on the show their names were changed his was brent and hers was somethign weird that i dont remember.. I wrote him a message, i dont know why i did.. but i did.. i must be a fool!! he is divorced now, i knew he would be.. shoulda just made the smart choice... ME! hahaha im kidding! i was like 13 then? lets see he is 6 years older..so i guess i would have been 14 close to 15 though... So then i thought well who else did i want back then, James so i searched for him.. He was there but he had a private profile and it said he was 14.. which isnt true, he is the same age as me.. i dont know why it says that. but i do know it was him, from the picture... still very ugly.... hahahaha stupid boy... just goes to show, you can get ahold of anyone on myspace.. just try it!! that scars me, what if they realize its me! OMG! i gotta run to the store.. peace yo -Jess

I <3*Heart*<3 California

Before i begin i'd like to give you some information on me, for those of you whom do not know me. You may think you do, but you dont know me as well as you think... When i was in high school, well no i guess it started way before then. When i was little born in the 80's.. i descovered music, i loved all kinds. My two favorites at the age of maybe 5, were Tom Petty, and the Red Hot Chili Peppers. As i got older i came to respect and love both of them, but became obsessive with the red hot chili peppers. i had pictures all over of Anthony kiedis, his name. I had all of their albums, including ones from before i was born. Today most of those albums are lost, stolen, broken. i still have my favorites though which are: Mothers milk, Blood Sugar Sex Magik, One Hot minute( with dave nivarro) and Californication; i also have By the Way, but its not my favorite! I was up early, i had taken sleeping pills to sleep around 1 a.m. I have no drugs, i just got my tooth pulled, my back is killing me from cleaning (my uncle dave came into town), and i keep getting sharp pains in my kidneys. So today hopefully my drugs will come and i can finally be pain free, be it pain pain, or mental/emotional pain. I was watching ellen, when i wondered if it was 10 yet, because she is over at 10. I flipped around to find the time, being to lazy to get up and check a clock. VH1 had on a song, it sounded familiar, but the singer was scary looking. Who was it? Anthony Kiedis in DRAG, for their new album Stadium Arcadium the song was "Dani California" after watching this video with my undivided attn, i came in here logged online to buy the album, learn about it. How was it possible that i could have not known about this album? After finding out about it, buying it from Barns and Noble.com i went upstairs to smoke. 97.7 the river was on the radio... and what song should be broadcast? Dani California.. They were talking about the new rhcp album and how you could buy it at their website... How is again possible that all of a sudden everyone knows about this album and i just came out of the dark? what are the chances i would hear it twice in less than a half an hour. Someone obviously wanted me to know, and buy it... Now having said that, i'd like to get down to the point... Anthony Kiedis, Hellel Slovac, John Frasuante.... what do they have in common other than they were in the same band. Well come on, your supposed to be a music genius, and look down upon others for not knowing... Okay i'll tell you what those three men have in common. But first let me say RIP to hellel whom died early on before the chili peppers became as huge as they are now. John replaced him after he died. Then when john left, Dave nivarro stepped in for ONE ALBUM.. then Johnny came back... Anthony never left, so then that cant be what they have in common, right? Correct, what they had in common is Herion.. The most addictive drug there is, next to cigarettes. You may recall the song "Under the Bridge" which is well known for its relations to Anthony getting clean from his herion use. When i was in High School i wanted to try herion, but in powder form like cocaine. I knew where to get it, from my friends brother, he could get ahold of anything... What stopped me? nothing i take codeine remember!! Which is a dirivitive of the opioid which is heroin. Get it? little drug fact for you.... explain some? Dont challenge me on pharmaceuticals thats where im at my best, that and Music tirvia... Anyway i had this hole big long thing about drug addiction and bands and i dont know. I got up to get the mail and listen to this CD (Third Eye Blind - self title debut) and now i've lost my train of thought... Dont get up and leave during a post, it messes it all up..

25 May, 2006

bitter feelings, divided and conquorded by a pain killer known as codeine

Interesting title? I thought so, although there are people whom do not find the same things interesting. I've got two topics to share with you, followed by insite into my week. Before i begin i have one question, is anyone else annoied by the music on the page? because all you need do is leave a comment and its gone, because its already pissing me off. But i dont want to do it just for me, i'd like to do it if it bothers someone else... not that, that even made any sense haha..

The song "Good" by Better Than Ezra, chorus Lyric "Uh HUH!! It was good living with you! UH HUH!! It was good, oh oh huh! it was good living with you, uh huh... good good good good good good" In the song he reffers to walking around the apartment, and what i can only assume is seeing what used to be while living with his then girlfriend. Which now he is not with, and he misses her. Now i love this song very much, its an awesome song. (here comes the point) if you are serious enough with someone to live together, when you break up. Who in the world can honestly say "It was good, living with you, uh huh"? I certainly cant, i mean i loved mark very much, too much. When i left i didnt hate him, i still dont, but you will never hear me say "It was good living with you, uh huh!" We broke up, obviously we broke up for a reason, ya know? I dont hate any of my ex's, and i dont regret one moment of the time that was spent on them. My point basically is, how many people in the U.S. can say it was good living with there ex, they miss it, ect. I mean some times when your the dumpee, you miss the person, but that feeling soon leaves. And then can you say "Oh it was good living with so and so?" The band also talks about calling or writing a letter to tell you it was good living with you. Once again, i know its getting annoying, but once your relationship has ended. How many people want to be the one that comes crawling back, and says and i quote "Yeah you were so good, good good good, it was good, uh huh, living with you, uh huh!!" okay one more quote and then i'll explain: " Well maybe im just to sure. Or maybe im just frigtened by the sound of it. Pieces of note fall down, but the letter said Uh huh, it was good, living with you, uh huh" What this means to me is someone left him, found someone else, didnt want him to feel bad. So she left some note "I've left you for someone else. but dont worry, it was good living with you" haha what that means is: Well i let you have me, so i'd have a place to live. I'm not completely heartless, just almost heartless. So never fear here's the only good thing i could find to say about you "It was good living with you" What is your opinion on that? You obviously know mine!

IM going to skip the topic i was going to talk about, on account of A. i was something to talk about tomorrow. B. I want to contiue on the same heading, Songs and relationships..

How many people remember the song "leaving town" by Dexter Freebish? "But when your broken down. And no one else is around, you'll come running back to this town. And i'll be there, yeah i'll be there. Cuz i remember how we drank time together. and we used to say the stars are forever. and you dreamed about how make you life better, by leaving town." who is this? That song in its own entirity is the relationship between seth and i. He is always there when i mess up. And i've always got my head in the clouds dreaming of how my life could be so much better if i just get out of springfield. Remember Chicago? and how everything was going to be so wonderful there? How was it going to be wonderful? Why would it be wonderful? Because it had lots of people, no one knows you. hmm how do i explain this generally.. People up there are numb(er) than us. If i fell on the street up there, would anyone stop and help me? chances are probably not. If i fell on the street here, i'd have 50% of the people who saw offering to help. Chicago was this place i was going to go, and hide from a life i didnt want to lead, a home i hated. Men i had no success with. And one man i wanted dearly... I guess if i could some that chicago guy up in one song, it would be Tracy Chapman's "Fast Car" the song basically states that she wants out of a town she cant stand anymore, she wants to take this relationship away from failure. She wants to hop in her lovers car, because its fast and she could get out of town soonest. She talks about how the person makes her feel when they put their arms around her, how she felt when they kissed, and why she wants them to leave with her. But in the end of the song she's basically like forget it, forget i said anything. I dont need if you, if you dont want to go. So there you have it, a few songs that you've probably heard several times, and now, maybe now. You will listen to the song from all aspects of it, listen, learn, live life to its fullest.... -Jess

24 May, 2006

Ridin' Dirty!

"They see me rollinThey hatin. Patrolling they tryin to catch me ridin dirty. Tryin to catch me ridin dirty. Tryin to catch me ridin dirty. Tryin to catch me ridin dirty. Tryin to catch me ridin dirty... My music so loud! I'm swangin! They hopin that they gon' catch me ridin dirty, Tryin to catch me ridin dirty, Tryin to catch me ridin dirty, Tryin to catch me ridin dirty, Tryin to catch me ridin dirty."

I think i have a new theme song, haha how lame does that sound. Although i do listen to all genre's of music, some of them i do not perfer compaired to others. But there is a song from a genre which is not my top choice (Rap). It's by chamillionaire the song is called "Ridin' Dirty", this so was me up until 4 months ago? No insurance, invailed plates, something wrong with the title in his car (NOT MINE) and he had something wrong with his license, although not to toot my own horn, i've never been in trouble and i know most of the cops in the area's of town where they're dicks. I got pulled over once (the first time) and i had beer (open) a bottle of so co, and a cup with soco and cherry coke. I was completely drunk, driving marks truck which was way too illegal the only thing legal in it, was me i always wear a seatbelt and have never had any problems with my license! anyway he was a southernview cop that new my family and he let me go with no tickets for the truck and didnt say anything about drinking (under age, with an older guy). Heh but those days are so far behind me, that was a completely different person. The alcoholic that couldnt stand her life so she drank away all sense of being. But im proud to say that i dont drink, and in the past year or longer i've only drank twice and didnt find it particularly fun.... and as for mark, although i loved him, he did me so wrong i dont even know what to say after that. so anyway i've got a great sub for a post, but i just had a tooth pulled and its been a really stressful day i'll explain later... peace ~*JESS*~

21 May, 2006

Searching for signs of life, but theres no body home!

Well this week has been your advrage hum drum week, nothing to report. Whether it be good or bad. We're thinking about taking a trip to chicago, to see the field museum. I've been wanting to go for awhile, but we always ending going to st.louis. I've done that 2-3 times a year since i was like 3. I'm sick of st.louis, theres so much more to do in chicago. Plus i'd like to hang out with my friends, maybe go out to lunch or something. I guess i could call Jon and ask, but he probably wouldnt answer or something like that, so really whats the point? So i've been playing on myspace, i met a lot of people i havent seen in so long. Like people i went to school with, in my eyes myspace, is alright! so here in subcity, life is hard.. lol so im going to start my story over, does anyone care? i guess its no big deal to anyone but me, but you know beverly donofrio didnt have much of a life and aside from having a child we've gone through some of the same shit. And susanna kaysen feels nuts, but doesnt believe she is insane, well so do i. And they have best sellers, and have had movies made about their lives. I know i've said something similar before, so ya'll should know it by now. i dont even feel like writing this, who cares what i say? thats why my story will flop, huh?? see... you know you thought it... so anyway i guess thats it... more later or something... -jess